Pull out the streamers! Toss the confetti! There’s a party going on. Shantel’s on the single train! Finally free.
Have I always felt this liberated? Have I always been this joyous? Absolutely not. But now is a wonderful occasion and I‘ll share why.
Not too long ago, I had been up crying. Crying and worrying about who my future husband would be. I had these ideas of what he’d be like and how our interactions would go but it all seemed so far from me. It frustrated me when I didn’t get the results I hoped for. My expectations along with my confidence had hit an all-time low.
I believe it all started around middle school. Right around the era of Princess Diaries, The Wedding Planner, and 13 going on 30. I had become the biggest fan of love stories, fairytales, and happy endings. Something in my heart would melt every time I’d see a guy and girl fall in love. With eyes glued to the television, heart fluttering, and happy tears, I dreamed of having my own fairytale.
I eventually began drawing hearts around my crushes’ names and pairing our names together. Imagining our home, children, and occupations, I was a “hopeful romantic”. Then came Pinterest, my frenemy.
Pinterest and I had a love-hate relationship because I started out loving to pin my favorite wedding dresses and rings but hated not knowing when it would all go down.
Any inclination of a guy liking me started the questionnaire. Is he the one? Is he a gentleman? Do our names mesh well? How’s his family? Is he on social media? (I know I’m not the only one!)
While getting to know a couple guys I realized something was missing. Contentment and fulfillment in Christ.
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Matthew 6:33 NKJV
I had had wonderful encounters with God, worshipping and feeling His love but my heart wandered on and off again. It wasn’t until the end of last year and the beginning of this year, that I fully surrendered. I bore my heart out to God and released my idea of how things were supposed to be and who I thought I should be with.
Now I am finally free! Free from worrying, free from insecurities, heartbreak, and free from me. My heart is soaring because I realize that a life in Christ is already the greatest fulfillment.
Guys and girls, we waste so much time worrying about who “the one” is that we miss time with “The One”. It’s time to embrace our singleness and do life big. Travel, sing, write, dance, you name it! Don’t waste another precious moment.
Prayer for Repentance
If you feel like you’ve wasted enough time and desire to get back on track, please pray this prayer with me.
Thank you for seeing me for me. For giving me grace to realize how much I need you. For every time I’ve filled our time with idle time, I repent. I’m sorry for letting others and my ways take your place. You are my reward and my portion. Creator of Heaven & Earth, I surrender to You. I surrender my thoughts, my flaws, and my perceptions. I surrender my past relationships and all residue from them. Your timing is best for me because You created time. Help me not to be discouraged when things don’t go my way. Maker, cause my heart to turn to You. You have new ideas, new ventures, and new blessings in store for me. I don’t ever have to wonder if I am loved because You are mine forever. Amen.
Seek God today. Worship Him in His presence. He wants to fill you and refresh you. I encourage you to listen to this cleansing song. God bless!